A fundamentally dominant facet.

I’m basically living out of a suitcase right now.

It sucks, but what am I supposed to do when I’m transitioning through two houses.

-.-

Why am I so lonely without you?

So…

yvanpontino:

I wake up this morning and the first thing I hear on Fox 11 News is: “The Newport Beach Area is seeing occassional fifteen foot wave faces.”

MY FACE:

HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

I love you Yvan.

You share the same love of the water that I do.

WE’RE GOIN SURRRRRRRRRRRRRFINNNNNNNNNNNN!

bahahahaa <3

WHY I LOVE YOU;

I don’t think you truly understand my intentions.

I’m here to give, receive, and understand love.

I am not here to argue, bicker, fight, or get torn apart.

I got into this because my heart gets what my heart wants, but at this time it seems like my heart is trying to opt out.

I think when we are in love, a lot of things get cloudy.

I can’t live without you (literally). There is a permanent spot dug into my heart with your name etched into it.

I’ve gotten too comfortable around you, which is why you probably think I always want to be around you.

It’s because you make me happy! I swear it is… all that fighting and stuff? pshh that’s nothing compared to the love I have for you.

You should feel lucky. You’re ex didn’t want anything to do with you till it was too late.

I feel like all the time I spend thinking about you is wasted because I could be doing other things, but now it’s come to the point where you are in my mind twenty-four seven. There is an upside down picture in my brain that translates to your face, sitting by my side, holding me close as we lie next to each other, taking in each others scent.

I love every moment of that image, and I wish it could be back to the way it used to be (the image).

In all honesty, I really don’t think you will find anyone that cares about you as much as I do. I have everything you’ve ever wanted, plus a lot more on top of that. Together, we are a perfect match. I wish you would realize this more, and appreciate me more.

I know I can be paranoid sometimes, but that is just who I am as a person. Either deal with it and roll with the punches, or say goodbye and move on. There are a lot of things that have gone on  in my life that have made me a permanently scared human being. I’ve been like this all of my life due to neglect from parents and self esteem issues. Paranoia struggles with me at all times of the day and night. I am a very careful and scared person. Though I tried to hide this in the beginning, eventually I showed my true colors. I know this wasn’t the person you thought me to be, but this is who I am. I might be confident on the outside, but on the inside I deal with struggles you can’t even imagine on a day to day basis. I am working to fix those struggles, but it has been a long and hard road and I’m just about to give up.

Please, before you make any rash decisions, don’t give up on us. It really is all I have in life that makes me decently happy. I want to be with you forever, I’ve never met someone in my life that has had such an impact on my everyday life. 

E X T E R N A L L Y forbidden;

So yeah, I had a job for a month, got laid off because the FCKING supervisor was a piece of shit.

(:

Summer is almost over, I can’t believe I survived x_x.

I’m going to Oregon in four days… hickville, USA. (:

I can’t wait to gather around with my hilbilly bretheren and sing a song of dispair while I bathe in the lake of why are we here.

&; I have a question, why did you bite that apple, Eve?

DOWN FOR THE C O U N T;

In reality, we are meant to believe that there is always two sides to every story.

REALLY?

No…. REALLY REALLY???

REALLY??????????????????

I’m on fucking cloud nine right now.

I just got a job.

fck you. (:

SUMMARY;

Well, summer is going….. okay so far.

I’ve been doing a lot of surfing and bodyboarding, since that is one of the only things poor people can afford… long, sunny days at the beach; or should I say CLOUDY.

This weather is so weird, I can’t stand it anymore. It’s making everything depressing.

On the bright side, I got a lot done, redid my room, painted a couple of canvases, read about eight books, and got tan. (:

& now, as I sit here, worried sick because my mom was supposed to be home about 15 hours ago, I’m starting to wonder why I care so much about little things.

It just occurred to me, that I care too much about little things.

I don’t know where it came from, maybe it was just a small epiphany.

lol

(:

@CAROLINE

seawolflegs:

I love how my cell # is on your tumblr~

(:

DEAR BLOG,

It’s been waaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy too long.

I feel like I’ve been neglecting you the most ):

I missed writing things.

<3